Here is a beautiful life lesson, one that reaffirms hope and faith and life now and forever. From Rev Nadia Bolz-Weber...

Liberace in his heavenly palace. (not really)
Jesus said to them,
7Very truly, I tell you, whoever believes has eternal life. 48I am the bread of life.
When
I was in my twenties and totally out of control and pretty much
estranged from my conservative Christian parents I used to joke about
how my mom would try and guilt me into connecting with them more often
by saying in her Kentucky accent “Nadia, the least you could do is come
visit us more often…since we won’t be spending eternity together”. Which
made me wonder if the church she went to realized that the promise of
spending eternity with my mom and her friends wasn’t exactly the best
selling point. At least not for a 21 year old.
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But
that’s kind of what I was taught: that being a Christian was all about
where you will spend eternity after you die – kind of like purchasing a
life-insurance plan for the hereafter. And if you manage to be good
enough here on earth then when you die you get to go to heaven and be
like the spiritual 1% for eternity and live in big mansions with Jesus
and wear awesome jewels and walk streets of gold. Which made it sound
like eternal life is basically about getting to live like Liberace
Forever.
So even now when I hear the phrase “eternal life” it’s
hard to not just think of it as life after death. Don’t get me wrong,
it is true that to have eternal life means that death is not the final
word…that beyond the death of these human bodies is a life with God
everlasting, That’s beautiful, and yes, it is good news. But I dare
say that it’s not the whole picture.
Because I need eternal life to be about more than just what happens after I die. I need eternal life to also be about life
before
death. Eternal life can’t just be about time that never ends – because
my relationship to time is in some ways, the very source of a lot of
fear and anxiety in my life. The philosopher Kierkegaard knew about
this. He wrote about how our anxieties are about how we relate to time –
See, The fixed nature of what has already happened can feel
terrifyingly final. But the unknowable and vast nature of what can
happen in the future is also frightening. It seems a simple enough truth
– that we can’t change the past and we can’t control the future. Yet
this is what haunts so many of us.
So, too often we spend our
time, our present time, the actual moments we will never get back again,
and we squander them regretting what we’ve done or what’s been done to
us in the past, or fearing what will or won’t happen to us in the
future. And seriously, we might as well just take all those present
moments we spend doing that and just throw them in a dumpster instead
because in effect that’s what we are doing anyhow.
So this week I
started to feel that if the promise of eternal life that Jesus speaks of
in our reading for today is only something that happens after we die,
then it just doesn’t feel like good enough news to me. But then I
realized, that if eternal life is related to the imperishable truth of
Who God is in Jesus, then this does actually have something to say about
our resentment about the past and our anxiety about the future.
Because when it comes down to it, all our regrets and fears that rob us
of the present moment …all of them when it comes down to it are actually
about the fear of death. Whether it’s a conservative Christian mother
who fears the loss of her wayward daughter and wishes she’d call more,
or a desperate housewife in Orange County who is injecting Botox into
her poor forehead. All fear is fear of death.
So if fear and
regret are the things that rob us of the present moment then when Jesus
speaks of eternal life, it isn’t just about what happens when we die.
Eternal life is life that is available now and it’s life that comes from
knowing that death has finally been put in it’s place. Everlasting life
is available now to those who believe that the God of the universe
whose love we are drawn into in Christ – that this God is the source and
ground of what is
more real than any mistake or mistreatment
of the past and more real than any hypothetical possibility in the
future. This isn’t about just when we die… because this God is present
to you most especially – not in the past or future – but in the present
moment. Jesus said I AM the bread of life not I was or I will be but I
AM and that I AMness of Jesus transcends time so that his I Amness is
available to us in the present moment. Kierkegaard was right when he
said that Christ’s presence on Earth is never a bygone event. The
IAmness of Christ is not something that we remember from ancient history
–it is always a present reality.
Life everlasting is always about
the present. It’s about a promise in Christ made in the past, which
continues in the future but is most especially for right now in the
present.
I think this is why all the great spiritual leaders teach
mindfulness. Because the gift of the present is the only thing that is
real.
This is how the great saints and martyrs of the church
survived whatever came their way. They weren’t saints because they
didn’t have the same amount of things in their past to resent or regret
as you do…it’s not because they didn’t have the same number of possible
bad things that could happen in the future…. I think they knew the
imperishable truth of Christ in the real and present moments of their
lives and they trusted this more than they trusted all other competing
ideas. They trusted this more than they feared death.
I think the
saints of the church have always known that I AMness of Christ as the
way, the truth and the bread of life is about NOW. This is why every
week when we introduce the peace at House for all Sinners and Saints we
do so by saying Christ is among us making peace right here, right now.
The peace of Christ be with you.
Maybe you live in a place of
resentment or regret for what has happened in the past. Or maybe you
live in anxiety or fear of the future, and if so, please know that this
imperishable truth of the I Amness of Christ is present to you. Right
here. Right now.
So I’ll take a page out of our
contemplative-in-residence James Wall’s book and invite you to
mindfulness. I invite you into the reality of this very moment. God is
here. The eternal imperishable truth is found in the way God is present
to us in each moment. This present moment is a gift to you from God.
Because here’s the thing:
God has already redeemed your past and is already present in the future that you keep worrying about.
And the life that God brings us is life eternal. It is happening right
now and it is more real and more powerful and more eternal than anything
you have to fear or resent or regret. So welcome to life eternal. Amen